I've been avoiding posting because I really have felt like my days have contained nothing worthy of a post. I feel like I've taken a major step backwards in my life, a lot of old anxieties have come up. I've been angry, sad, stressed, lonely, shy, and avoiding things that need to be confronted.
There's someone in my life that I've been working at breaking contact with for the longest time, who I let manipulate me, again, for the one millionth time. And that person betrayed my trust, again, for the one millionth time.
I've been upset with a family member for not feeling like they support me. And I've avoided talking to them about it to keep the peace. So, nothing is resolved there, just put off for the time being.
I'm lonely because I avoid people in general. Even some people that I should feel very comfortable with.
Mostly, I just put on a happy face and put a nice shine on my life, and tell people how happy I am, even when I am anything but. Even here on my blog, where I should be able to be total honest. I don't want to look back on this in the future and think that this blog was just a cover, and not at all representative of my life. I'm sorry I've been that way.
If y'all could just keep me in your thoughts while I'm going through this I'd greatly appreciate it. Thanks for listening.
January 8th - Rested before hitting parks. Did puzzles.
January 9th - Universal Studios - It ain't Disney. Pretty park, though.
My brother and I waiting in line for Toy Story. See Mr. Potato Head in the background... he talks and pulls his ear out!
January 13th - Magic Kingdom - Heaven on earth! Met talking trashcan.
The castle. Ignore the people in the foreground. I have no idea who they are. That's just what happens at Disney. Note how UNCROWDED it is!
They still had some Christmas decorations up which was awesome! Disney + Christmas = Lindsay's dream come true.
January 14th - Mini-golf at Fantasia Gardens. I lost.
This is me pretending to be a ballerina bird.
My family posing at Fantasia Gardens.
January 15th - Made it home. Missed my bed!
So that's where I've been. More pictures coming soon...
From the left, my sister Meagan is holding her son Alex, then above them is Piper, holding Kasyn, Holden, Scarlette, Kynslee, me holding Pebbles, Brayden on the floor, and Konner up on the couch.
Piper with her AG Felicity (last year's gift) and her pony Penny (from Santa this year). We got her a dress she really wanted for Felicity (not shown here). Piper said "I feel like I'm in a dream world. I can't believe I got Penny AND Felicity's holiday dress!" It was so sweet. She's always very appreciative.
Here's Konner playing the Wii. He had a blast with all kinds of video games while he visited. We set up the old N64 for him, and we could hardly pull him away. He kept asking for "One more game, just one more." Even when I creamed him in Mario Kart, if he made it to the finish line he'd say "Look! I won!" Guess he's not a sore loser. :)
Here's Brayden posing in the front window. He was a perfect fit! This boy just wanted to bounce on the trampoline all day. So glad I got a good smile out of him before he was too exhausted.
Here's Alex. Isn't that such a good smile? I have no idea how I captured it, because he was all over the place. He just loves to play with anyone or anything. He had quite a blast with our Mickey Mouse coasters. Who knew you could use them for more than just a drink holder?
Holden recently starting walking, so most of my pictures of him are just a blur. This is all I got, so you'll have to excuse the snot. (I'm a poet and don't even know it!) I got to help Holden with his presents this year. It was a blast. He did get a little too excited about his David and Goliath board book, and accidentally hit me in the eye with it during his celebration.
My muffin Pebbles is so much fun! Everyone wanted a turn holding her, so she got passed around a lot. She didn't mind. She's very easy-going. Its a wonder that she had enough floor time to show off her newest skill.....