February 2nd - 8th

Just needed to get this out:

I've been avoiding posting because I really have felt like my days have contained nothing worthy of a post. I feel like I've taken a major step backwards in my life, a lot of old anxieties have come up. I've been angry, sad, stressed, lonely, shy, and avoiding things that need to be confronted.

There's someone in my life that I've been working at breaking contact with for the longest time, who I let manipulate me, again, for the one millionth time. And that person betrayed my trust, again, for the one millionth time.

I've been upset with a family member for not feeling like they support me. And I've avoided talking to them about it to keep the peace. So, nothing is resolved there, just put off for the time being.

I'm lonely because I avoid people in general. Even some people that I should feel very comfortable with.

Mostly, I just put on a happy face and put a nice shine on my life, and tell people how happy I am, even when I am anything but. Even here on my blog, where I should be able to be total honest. I don't want to look back on this in the future and think that this blog was just a cover, and not at all representative of my life. I'm sorry I've been that way.

If y'all could just keep me in your thoughts while I'm going through this I'd greatly appreciate it. Thanks for listening.


February 1st

Happy 2nd birthday, Kasyn! Miss you!

January 31st

Happy 10th birthday and Baptism, Piper!

*Pictures (and video) to follow.

January 30th

Science guy at Piper's party ROCKED!

*Pictures to follow.

January 29th

Made Piper's horse cake. No suprise.

*I'm having a bit of trouble with my camera, I'll get that sorted out then pictures will be added!


January 28th

Random thought about PR's winning look tonight:

Looks like penguin designed by Nike.

Bonus: Today my BIL sent me this picture of Holden and I on Christmas.

January 27th

Why are toys so dang expensive?

Was trying to find plastic ponies for cheap to put on Piper's birthday cake. Apparently Toys R Us doesn't carry anything "cheap."


January 26th

JoAnn's - bought fabric I don't need.

Just because it was so darn pretty. It is now added to the ever growing pile of quilts to make.


January 25th

Taught oragami koalas to my scouts.

Bad picture, but seriously, how cute did it turn out?

January 24th

Wearing Flip Flops made my day.


January 23rd

Introduced my nieces to figure skating.

They asked me to TiVo it... Success!

January 22nd

Today I'm 21 and a half.


January 21st

Paul Rudd movies cheer me up.



January 20th

Bought favorite Ceasar dressing -- Cheesecake Factory's!


January 19th

Cat nearly puked on my head.

January 18th

Found $20 in a junk pile!

It must have been my reward for cleaning.


January 17th

Worked on top secret sewing project.

January 16th

Tons of errands. Forgot about laundry.


January 7th - January 15th

January 7th - Long car trip. 4 AM to 9 PM.

January 8th - Rested before hitting parks. Did puzzles.

January 9th - Universal Studios - It ain't Disney. Pretty park, though.
(Didn't take a single picture.)

January 10th - Universal Islands of Adventure - Seuss Landing was my favorite part.
The Cat in the Hat!

"Lindsay Hatches the Egg."

January 11th - Downtown Disney - Saw "Princess and the Frog" movie.

January 12th - Disney's Hollywood Studios - Loved the new Toy Story ride!

My brother and I waiting in line for Toy Story. See Mr. Potato Head in the background... he talks and pulls his ear out!

January 13th - Magic Kingdom - Heaven on earth! Met talking trashcan.

The castle. Ignore the people in the foreground. I have no idea who they are. That's just what happens at Disney. Note how UNCROWDED it is!

They still had some Christmas decorations up which was awesome! Disney + Christmas = Lindsay's dream come true.

January 14th - Mini-golf at Fantasia Gardens. I lost.

This is me pretending to be a ballerina bird.

My family posing at Fantasia Gardens.

January 15th - Made it home. Missed my bed!

So that's where I've been. More pictures coming soon...


January 6th



I'm going to Disney World! See ya in 10 days!


January 5th

Rare day where everything just works. :)

January 4th

Happy Birthday Casper! Dinner at America's.

January 3rd

Honestly, can't remember a single thing.

Christmas Pictures!

The picture that will forever grace my sidebar. Me and ALL the kids! Its a miracle!
From the left, my sister Meagan is holding her son Alex, then above them is Piper, holding Kasyn, Holden, Scarlette, Kynslee, me holding Pebbles, Brayden on the floor, and Konner up on the couch.

This is my immediate family. Stepsisters and their kids, my brother and I with our parents. Also a miraculous picture.
Back row: Casper, Me, Dylan, Meagan, and Alex. Middle row: Brayden, my mom, my stepdad Chris holding Pebbles, Konner, Kynslee, Ashlee holding Kasyn. Front row: Jaton, Holden, Piper, and Scarlette.

Piper with her AG Felicity (last year's gift) and her pony Penny (from Santa this year). We got her a dress she really wanted for Felicity (not shown here). Piper said "I feel like I'm in a dream world. I can't believe I got Penny AND Felicity's holiday dress!" It was so sweet. She's always very appreciative.

Here's Kynslee and Scarlette. I honestly did not see these two all day. They were off playing together and I never heard a single fight. Aren't they looking so grown up?

Here's Konner playing the Wii. He had a blast with all kinds of video games while he visited. We set up the old N64 for him, and we could hardly pull him away. He kept asking for "One more game, just one more." Even when I creamed him in Mario Kart, if he made it to the finish line he'd say "Look! I won!" Guess he's not a sore loser. :)

Here's Brayden posing in the front window. He was a perfect fit! This boy just wanted to bounce on the trampoline all day. So glad I got a good smile out of him before he was too exhausted.

Here's Alex. Isn't that such a good smile? I have no idea how I captured it, because he was all over the place. He just loves to play with anyone or anything. He had quite a blast with our Mickey Mouse coasters. Who knew you could use them for more than just a drink holder?

Holden recently starting walking, so most of my pictures of him are just a blur. This is all I got, so you'll have to excuse the snot. (I'm a poet and don't even know it!) I got to help Holden with his presents this year. It was a blast. He did get a little too excited about his David and Goliath board book, and accidentally hit me in the eye with it during his celebration.

My muffin Pebbles is so much fun! Everyone wanted a turn holding her, so she got passed around a lot. She didn't mind. She's very easy-going. Its a wonder that she had enough floor time to show off her newest skill.....

I didn't get any pictures of Kasyn, sadly. Poor thing had an allergic reaction to something and was definately not himself. He slept most of the day. He's not talking too much, but is really good at saying "NO!" even when he means 'yes'. He is still a snuggle bug!
It was so much fun to have everybody together! It was a great Christmas this year, much more focus on being together as a family than on gifts. I really enjoyed it. :)


January 2nd

Family Christmas -- less drama than normal.

I'll post pictures from the party tomorrow. :)


January 1st

Played video games with extended family.

(and kicked booty, of course.)